I am sitting here at my desk trying to think about something to blog about. My life is so blah. Stuck in a rut. People whom I haven't seen for a while ask me how things are going and my response is always the same "Same ole, same ole".
WTF??? When did life become so freakin' predictable? I get up every morning and get ready for work. 80% of the time my hair is up because it isn't worth the time and effort to wear it down.
There isn't really anyone to impress anyway. It isn't like my clients actually see me. I sit in a fucking cubicle that is about 6x6 (that is smaller than a jail cell people) and talk on the phone all day long. Have I mentioned lately that I have been at the same job for so long I could do it in my sleep?
When I start to dream about work then it is definitely time to get the hell out of Dodge.
I got one of those cutesy emails today. Something along the lines of "respond to me with one word that you think describes me and then send this to your friends to see what responses you will get". So I bite. Don't have anything better to do anyway. I send the email to my friend who sent it to me and then sent it BCC to all of my friends.
Holy shit. About 70% are co-workers. When did that happen? When did work become my social life? No wonder I can't find a date. All the men that I work with are either married, WAY too young or losers. There are a few notable exceptions but I always end up being "the friend".
The friend???? WTF?? What happened to the girl that used to play men left and right? Oh... I know. I had a kid.
If you want something that will put a crimp in your social life like no other - have a kid.
Don't get me wrong. I love D to the depths of my soul and wouldn't wish for a moment that I didn't have him. But shortfry has seriously diminished the number of guys that would have considered me dateable. I am now a "package deal".
What is it about kids that scares men off like a bat shit ice cream cone? I know that there is some cro-magnon thing about not wanting to raise another mans child or some shit like that but to me that is a cop-out. Look how many blended families there are.
Why is it that the only men that say that they would date me are all gay? If I hear "Girl, if I was straight I would totally date you" one more time I might just rip off their unused testicles and shove them down their throat. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my gay friends, but that shit sure isn't conducive to finding a straight man. I go to a dinner party and they are all fruity as flies. More estrogen flying around than I had when I was 9 months pregnant.
I have decided that 80% of men are cowards. They are like anonymous commenters. All they want to do is hit and run. They want the rewards but none of the work. What happened to the men that want to in a realtionship? Oh yeah, by my age they are married which takes them totally off my radar.
Being almost 33 and a single mom really sucks. I am starting hit what would be termed middle age and seriously people when you say that 40 is the new 30? Doesn't make me feel ANY better. God I hate this shit!