Tuesday, April 29, 2008

If we are facing in the right direction, all we have to do is keep on walking

For the past week I have been feeling a bit discouraged. I have been tired and have been forcing myself to work out every day.

Last week the weather was nice and I was able to be outside to work out for 3 days. It was wonderful to feel to sun on my back as I walked around the paths in the office park where I work. There was even some laughable attempts at jogging, but I just don't think that my body is ready for it.

I want to be able to do whatever I want. If I want to run 2 miles my mind is convinced that my body should be able to do it. My body, on the other hand, is quite adamant that it is NOT ready for running or jogging. After about 200 yards or 30-45 seconds, I am panting like I have run a marathon. It is VERY frustrating.

This week I have been driven back to the exercise room due to temperatures on the low 30's during my work out time. What used to be a comfortable place, now seems like a dingy prison. Even with the music blasting in my ears I am bored looking at the same four walls day in and day out. The same 2-3 people come in while I am there but for the most part I am alone. Left to my thoughts and now I am seeing those thought turn dark and depressing.

I have come so far and I know that I am not going to give up. My dark thoughts are fleeting for the most part, but it still bothers me that I am having them.

I am seriously considering joining a gym with part of the stimulus package. What a better way to put it to use? Stimulate the economy while I stimulate my mind and body.

I fould a quote that I find very helpful when I am feeling dark & twisty like I have been in the past week.

"Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius power and magic in it"


Churlita said...

the good thing is that it's Spring and not Fall. It will get nice and stay nice for a while. If it helps to join a gym, then do it. You are amazing. We all go to that dark place sometimes, but then we all crawl back out again. this too shall pass.

playtah said...

Rach, you are amazing! A. Maz. Ing. I'm sorry that sometimes the dark thoughts crowd in. Maybe the arrival of springtime will help. And yay for inspiring quotes!

Anonymous said...

Join a gym or else you will hit a wall. Switch it up too every week.

Free weights will help increase muscle as well.

Good luck.


Andre said...

Please let me know what you think of this... i am humbled and wish you the most success!
Thoughts from my Mind August 10th, 2010. 12:07am

From my heart to yours

This time around....
There is an opportunity for you ..for us all... each and every time something happens which we may not understand, or even want to happen, or feel we deserve to have to go through...Live through. Yet I have heard it before ...without the bitter, the sweet would not be as sweet! Every time you are feeling to give up, give in or stay down....realize it has happened so you can feel and enjoy the glory of getting back up! To build yourself up, to climb that mountain, by diggin your heels in.. to be able to look in the rearview mirror. To celebrate yourself, your journey...when deep down you always knew, know, and will know, not so much of the past, present or future, however what's most important>> The Truth. Not anyone else's but your own >>>TRUTH. We all must live through the darkness to really experience true light. To shine as only you were meant to do>>BEING YOU!!! The journey from the heart, your heart...to the mind, your mind, is the longest journey of one's life (in my opinion). Having them unite with one... to one, peace. A sense of self, an act of forgiveness, a release of all your guilt, turmoil, judgments, and most importantly again, others and your expectations! You are great, you are special, you are needed, you are beautiful -- a god or goddess of your own existence and for that, diggin your heels--for you, WALK TALL!!! Only you can do it for you! Who would be your role-model? Do you now know your role? ---Open your eyes and look in the mirror -- that's your model! Then say it with me --- I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!!

Written By Andre T. Smith
"Mr. Walk Tall"

cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial
and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and
success achieved"