Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Thoughts On The Past Six Months

I have one day to go to make it a full 6 months on Weight Watchers. I started on June 13th, and this week is week 26 for me.

In the past 6 months I have lost 44.5 pounds which is nearly a third of my total goal of 147.5. That is amazing to me. Six months ago I was busting out of my 24's and now my 20's are getting too big. My feet have gone down a size and my ring finger has gone from a 10 to at least a 7.

I feel so much better. I can sleep the whole night through and not have horrible back pain in the morning. I can go dancing and be on the floor for 3-4 hours and my legs don't ache and my feet barely hurt, even when I wear heels.

I feel attractive again. I used to feel like I was the biggest, ugliest person in the room. Now, I might be the biggest sometimes, but I know how far I have come and that I am becoming as beautiful on the outside as my friends tell me that I am on the inside.

I have had a few splurges like birthdays and last Monday with my 20 point leftover extravaganza, but I haven't ever felt like I was being deprived and I never went over my weekly points except for the time that my son was in the hospital. I feel better, I look better, heck, I probably even smell better now that I don't have fat and grease from fast food in my body.

I don't know if I ever would have started this journey if it wasn't for my mom. She offered to pay for WW for the first 3 months as a birthday present and I almost turned her down. I would have been a fool to do that. I love the program and the people that I have met while on it.

People say that they won't change if they lose a lot of weight. I want to change. I want to be a more confident person. I want to feel that I am worth something and I can't wait until I see my mothers face when she sees me for the first time after I have lost so much weight. She lives on the other side of the country and I won't see her until next summer. I hope that I will be down 100 pounds by then.

I never thought that I would stick it out. I have no willpower. What I discovered is that if I want it bad enough, and I take it seriously enough, I can achieve whatever I put my mind to.

Thank you to EVERYONE on here who has inspired me, given me a wakeup call or made me take myself not so seriously and filled my day with laughter.

P.S. ~ Only 5.5 pounds to go before I post a full body photo (I will be clothed LOL)


Sizzle said...

your journey is so inspiring- thanks for sharing it with us! and congratulations on your well-earned success. :)

Churlita said...

You are so wonderful. How great of you to not only do this, but to be so honest about your experiences.

Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you. I remember how you felt before all of this happened and it is so great to see you feel better about yourself.

reformattingmybrain said...

I am so happy for you!! Way to go!! Glad you are sharing this journey with us. It's a tough one.

The Diva's Thoughts said...

Congrats girl!!! This is wonderful.

David in DC said...


Keep at it, you're doing great.

Cant wait for the next pics of your progress.

You're healthier, happier and doing the right thing for yourself and for Devon.

Yay Rachel

Beth said...

Dear Rachel, you ARE beautiful, inside and out. And you are worth far, far more than you know.

I only know you through here and FunnyGirl's admiration...and I like very much everything I see.

I really, really look forward to meeting you one day.

You remind me of Valerie Bertinelli just now, who says for the first time in 30 years, her New Year's goal has nothing to do with weight loss. You are so far along the path...I know you're going to reach that mountain top.

Mrs. Big Hairy Woman said...

I love hearing about how you doing.. So far it sounds as if you have made huge strides towards your weight loss.. Keep it up.. Looking forward to seeing your pics...

Lydia said...

You're doing so well, Rachel. I truly admire your determination. Look forward to seeing the new photo.